My Independent Reading Book - Rosa*

Summary
For my outside reading choice i selected the book " Girl Interrupted" by Susanna Kaysen that's based on a true story of a girl who lived right here in Boston, Ma. Each character goes through a different mental problem in which they're trying to improve by attending a a sort of home in which they're bring treated and watched. There are many girls involved in this story like Lisa, Polly, Daisy, Martians Girlfriend, the nurses, and Daisy's father. All these girls have gone through things and even tried suicide to why they stand where they are now. For example Polly set herself on fire and now her skin is disgusting , is the colors pink & brown, and she absolutely hates how she looks.In the past pages they are all interacting, watching TV together, gossiping and so forth. So far I believe that most of the girls will kill themselves by the end by their intolerant behavior and actions. The girls don't see how what they do is affecting their life and find they're horrible thoughts. For instance, there's a chapter talking about suicide and ho they feel if you don't practice, pretend, and think about it enough you wont do it. Its as if they find death pleasant and they don't see it as the end to their life. The girls need more help then what they have now, and they need it soon before the girls end up killing themselves or each other.
Quotation
Throughout these pages Susanna had many suicidal thoughts that were very dangerous. For example, " Suicide is a form of murder-premeditated murder. It isn't something you do the first time you think of doing it. It takes getting use to. And you need the means, the opportunity, the motive. A successful suicide demands good organization and a cool head, both of which are usually incompatible with the suicidal state of mind" (Kaysen 45).
Reaction
My reaction to the quote was that i felt scared, terrified, bad and sympathy. I came upon all these feelings by the thoughts that ran threw my head as I read. I thought about all the things that the girls may be thinking of doing to themselves, the mentality of the girls, and how they don't appreciate life. I saw all of this because its sad to see such young girls thinking this way and wanting to hurt themselves. It just doesn't make sence to me because I would never think the way they do. In addition to that, I felt scared because suicidal thoughts are creepy, to think of hurting yourself and things like that isn't something to be happy about.